Jared Pearce

 

ARCHITECTURE

 

 

I wanted my hands

under the arc, the descending

 

edge where the passion wiggles

and keeps its rosy gleam,

 

a separate universe down where the melon

weight is its own ocean.

 

Urizen and his tricky bag begin

under the ripples, the crescents beyond

 

arcs, the squiggles of uniquenessesC

can these be so lumped one

 

after another?  Serried beyond squid,

pollywog, women and men,

 

the holds of dos and et ceteras,

there’s no breath or television

 

for perspective.  This curvature

of God, how can it be

 

giving?  Even to tally calories, or the metals

in blood there’s no score, no board

 

meetings or guarantees, only a language

contract effects a little link,

 

a hammer pounding out eternity

in every exchange: a keystone

 

is where the corners meet.

 

 

 

 

MODES OF DISCOURSE

 

 

Speaking of ebonics, table manners, terrible films we stayed

up too late for, and trying to find light-foot words to chase

 

sentiment back to its fox hole so we can go on living: checkbooks, trash

bags, diapers.  Neatness counts in love, to name this sort of thing: cleanliness,

 

the attributes of deity, brooms, brillo pads that hold suds so nicely, the muck

trucked in from language that needs a good scrubbing. I saw,

 

when you opened the closet, shirts in drawers, socks in the hamper, the used envelope

on the chest I’m saving for a secret love message to be scrawled in my illegible cursive.

 

I was at the desk the whole time you complained about the phone

billCreceipts all around your toes, a pencil holding back your hair, a calculatorC

 

scheming to get your attention, have you fall backwards laughing, waking the neighborhoods

and swamps laughing.  But I was silentCthinking of the row

 

of neat tooth brushes and lip sticks, clutters of books in the hallway, dead gnats and

realized that, like a house without furniture, I have not named you.

 

 

 

 

 

SIX WEEKS

 

 

Breasts perfect and unfathomable                 If Jesus came home he would be unable to say

as cantaloupe, form and content:             how to get another to read

presence realized by the infant’s             one’s mind, the mysterious codes of body

suck: a connection, an absence that makes             out as black petals, layered as vulva.

room for essence: as close as love                      

and instinct and language can fold           Jesus never had a son to tuck

one to one to one.           in pacifier and nursery fables, never

                        the triangle of child, time and desire, of distinct

Borders.  It’s degrading to command           borders. He fulfilled laws, snuffed

sexuality which has its own          desires of every angle. Could he comfort one

meaning and language,        who recalls where her breasts and ribs meet?

and in the fifth week                               

I understand, I allow      There are various Edens sometimes rotting

the text and reader because I am     the crossfire of command and yearning,

not proud, I’m reliving the scenes    mingling singularity.  Such is only for us

of desireCsuccess and failure,  to administer, to figure: How to

communicate a giving?

 

 

 

 

THERE THERE MUST BE REASONS

 

 

1.  Timponogos

 

The crest cuts up out of the city, knife

shunt over all the trees.  The square, blunt edge,

stone diceCdon’t roll over till you get down

the glacier; even early September.

Some small grass in this thin air, not enough

for the goats who stay belowCbut here they

are wisps and seeds, unbloom, no bees, they push

born of rock, the very end of the world

for what sun they can, what pools form on their

sheer ledge.  Ice will layer even the edge,

make it smooth and mute in season, bring

a figment of purpose even to this

weed who would like so much to be eaten.

 

 

 

2.  Black Box Narrows

 

Closer to the center, more agony

in the black faces, twisted by rivers

of brown San Pete waters that can trickle

morning and flood that same noon, drowning

a lone hiker whose foot, jammed in between

boulders could watch the black clouds gather through

a slit in the earth’s crust, could drink the rain

and regard the dumb beauty of driftwood

as he tries to break his leg, the rock, any

thing before the river, it’s on the rise,

its roar, it’s peacefully molding stone cliffs

in its wicked curves: Picasso faces,

Van Gogh.  You have to imagine what stories

they hide, what reason their maniacal laughter.

 

 

 

3.  Beach at Destin

 

Dead jellyfish everywhere, bladders drained,

squashed.  You can touch the brain part, but beware

the squirmy mop-hair arms that twine and tingle

a numb fish; for you a fork under the skin.

This winter’s so cold they froze on sand, white

as icebergs.  They were taught to beware arctic

waters, the gloom and green light of frozen

seas.  The cerulean gulf made them tiny

clouds, puffing through space on important sub-

missions: seek and destroy, eat everything

you find.  In the end, even this two-foot

swell could reject them.  I went in up to

the anklesCached the bones so bad I thought

of the Pacific, of why I’m here at all.

 

 

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